Ten Minutes

8:09 p.m.  Te alcanzo dentro de paredes lineas de metal ondas de

20:10        Steel, the ocean is an iron fence most nights. Freezing Celcius water on my feverish Farenheart,

8:11 p.m. Nado como un ritmo y te anhelo como rima poética aunque

20:12     You’re in distant cafés or smoking on a Santiago porch in dead night with somber wings painted on your back,

8:13 p.m. Pero decís que no sos un ángel. Sos un espíritu que comparte mis deseos

20:14      Rebel off-the-grid fleeting aquarius love of my life, filled with patience

8:15 p.m. para mí, y asco para la ciudad que te rodea, sabemos que el destino queda en el París latinoamericano,

20:16    You, interlaced with destiny and destination, interlaced with the journey of

8:17 p.m. conocer todo lo que nos espera y llama, la ausencia ya no me duele

20:18      the nostalgia

8:19 p.m.  me quiere, pero también dejamos en el pasado las pieles cambiadas

La Ausencia

Hoy llovía,

pienso en Buenos Aires y tu alma.

Imaginé tus hombros

y recordé tu escritura.

Hoy las calles se mojaron

de mis ansiedades

que caen como lágrimas

en el silencio de tus oídos ausentes.

Hoy se abrió el cielo

y sentía tu rostro angélico

en el gran vacío

que no posee dirección ni sentido.

Capaz que estés viviendo

en el olvido de mis pasos

en tu camino.

Capaz que estés aguantando

así.

Pero yo aguanto por saber de ti

y mis huesos se sienten

vacíos

con tu mente tan lejos de aquí.

En tiempos de colera

En tiempos de ausencia

qué hace el corazón?

Se duerme,

aun que deja que los ojos se desvíen.

Se duerme con el sueño

de tiempos nostálgicos.

El sentimiento es la mitad

del amor;

que también es la convicción.

Vos tenés mi corazón;

hacéte responsable:

él que ama

tiene la responsabilidad

de cuidar.

y la que necesita

tiene la responsabilidad

de esperar.

En tiempos de envejecimiento,

uno no se debe abandonar

la convicción.

Enamorarse no es el amor entero.

sino el primer paso

en su camino.

Amor en tiempos de cólera;

por las horas que se le olvida al otro,

entre los segundos que pareces ausente,

el amor es la promesa interna

de continuar.

Grown

this poem jumps around a lot and is rather incoherent, I realized. but that in itself reflects my current state of mind

we played football in muddy fields at dusk

like kings of Suburban wilderness

and dinner plates.

under cement tunnels through urban rivers,

we ran in moonlight

and drank cartons of milk

on warm neighborhood nights,

living immortally.

now we pretend to still be that age,

talking trash in diners, staying up late

all night they still play video games,

walking to the movies at 1 a.m.

and finding plastic roses in the street.

We stood outside of his parents’ house

all our hearts grew a bit older

when he told us he’ll be married

and a father by June;

we won’t be running around

on open fields anymore.

and all my other friends have gone,

no more Denny’s 2 a.m.

or living with our mothers,

we now shed the light of dawn

and live in bright high noon,

fate’s rays beating down on our skin.

The people of our pasts

and the music never lasts,

we float in and out of reality.

some paths change in an instant,

some girls change you for forever,

some people end up in your arms

and some move on like distant stars…

Alone with the Town

my last friend left to Reno

drove through wildfires with his girl

and I’m alone in town

once I told him to get out

now I’m the only one who still comes round.

nowhere to cruise

in this country night of blue

Wal-mart and traffic lights glow

warm bodies stay inside

and watch the television glow

eating jello

heating water for tea in their midnight micro-

waves, oh

hell, I’m alone

again

on tile cold.

maybe I’ll shoot the bull

with the absent-minded, directionless voices in my head,

or blow my nose,

get the smoke out of my soul.

or play reggae guitar to the light of the moon

on my bed for two

missing you…

Yearning for Big Sur and salt and even Venice Beach,

when I’m really nostalgic,

tacos and lime

even Hawaii

your tongue and lips and throat

pronouncing my name

kissing my breath

on city wind night morning light sky roof

desolation,

that we were,

shouts and ATMs and sleepless Christmas

you were drunk and passionate

I was jaded-

I remember too often,

since life is small here–

but grand and golden in my heart:

its warm nights and my father’s eyes and mother’s arms

hometown heart beating the drum of my soul tune

and I want to cut through every town

and walk on dirty cement

trip on cobblestone

sit on crumbling curb

I love to dig the city, her footprints

her red, yellow, green stars

gas station moons

and diner suns

empty cinemas 1 a.m. drinking coca cola icees

by the light of the marquee

and her violet hair

my velvet and moonshine friends,

all silent now,

in far-off places

leaving me, for a short time,

alone in Desert town,

washed-up

past high school days

lingering

in longing…

Old Poems: Summer Baby

We walked all the way down to Venice

the sun set on our glass liquor heat

our infrared smiles, lost girl mouths

we sat, she smoked, he drove and

we were forever young

every light told me to stay

the paradise air tried to establish me

the city may pulverize my dreams.

I’m a Summer baby,

under a bed I sleep and hear their dreams

and hope mine isn’t a product of loneliness

Anhelandote

           Aun recuerdo tus palabras.

Duelo porque necesito.

suelo bloquear recordar las sensaciones

de nuestra noche

para que no me duela.

Pero duelo igual.

ansío sentir tu lengua

atrás mis labios,

en los cóncavos de la cueva

donde reside mi alma,

el portal por cual pasan

mis promesas y proclamas,

desde una garganta de fuego–

cien grados del anhelo

que calentó mi corazón

por cuyas cámaras suenan tus ecos;

que en un nivel de mi piel

y del tiempo,

aún me estas tocando:

te siento,

como un beso eterno–

un lazo

que hicimos una noche imprevista.

Al recordar me enloquezco,

al amanecer la oportunidad me escapó,

ahora temo a menudo.

Acá la esperanza suele caer…

Heart Don’t Die

neon glowing white

hot flame blank screen

pages of you to write

but I only wish to

sleep for milleniums

until I find love in the concaves

of my dreams.

aunts, neighbors, collegues

open their mouths and have an opinion

no one asks what makes me happy

only wonder in silence if I’ll ever make money.

they care profoundly

about the wrong parts of my future.

are too burrowed in their own sorrows

to manage any optimistic words.

this is the moment

when everyone demonstrates

how little

they’ve ever known me.

sitting on piles of Hard Work and Dedication

[busywork, wasted time, and bullshit

nothing is meaningful under the sun

I could only be dedicated to something I love]

vaguely, distantly proud

because I was on the path they took

that led them to such

bliss-inspiring stability.

I don’t want my heart to die

as I grow older

I want to forget routine

and bullshit.

I only want to bleed

and see the cities

breathe their smoke

cough while laughing

kiss strawberrily and sleep in a haze

film foreign obscure dark themes

and forget the American dream.

Highway

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I am going

to do something

on my own.

you asked,

so I responded: “my favorite inanimate object is the road.”

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I want to be your gypsy.

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I will forever wildly love you.

turn my stone to skin,

I beg Time to let us win.

promise me we’ll sell roses

so we’ll have enough to eat,

with you I’ll hold my breath

and drive to bottom of the world.

my heart is on the highway,

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my life is carried away,

you are my purity

and I spend all the hours of time

craving.

I want your bones to set me afire,

I’ll whisper poetry to you

so you never overheat.

stay true,

in the midst of our hometown blues

We’ve gotta get out,

put ourselves on the road once more,

we can always come back here.

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Sol del Barrio / Barrio Sun

I did this assignment before but now I feel like delving deeper…

Toes over cobblestone,

tumbleweed, cracks in pavement

train station

blues.

echoes of a suitcase

rolling down a quiet road

one girl

miles away from home.

restless wind

stirs in the corners

of the barrio

as faces watch

from porches of cumbia

and sweat.

soccer and dust

creaking railway

dusk and waiting

for a bus full of silent lips.

fear sits like food

in every stomach

filling us up to the brim

with love for the seconds

we spend breathing quietly

in summer tranquility

near and far from where we’ve come,

chokingly saying nothing

and softly knowing everything

under Buenos Aires sun…